I’ve been in the mood for fresh starts. Refreshing and updating this blog is among a few new fresh starts of late. My launch into the world of blogging began a little over three years ago when I created a blog called “Recovering Wino” when my drinking had gotten WAY out of control. It was a bumpy ride there for a while. I got started in recovery with a twelve step program and although I’m not active there anymore, I am still grateful for the sober path that began all those months ago.
The transformation of this particular human being since then astonishes me still to this day. At one point in recovery I experienced what I only know to call a significant change or shift in consciousness. It’s hard to explain and wasn’t an earth shattering event or awakening of the sort that I’ve heard of from others but something just sort of shifted. Life looked different. Everything looked more clear. I began to care about things I had never cared about – clouds, trees, children, birds, the Universe, and so forth. I was AWAKE to Life around me in a way I’d not experienced before.
I hope to share more about what has helped me most along the way. I am not any sort of spiritual guru or confident in any solid belief of any kind in terms of God or spirituality. I heard the name Bumbling Sage on a retreat with a beautiful lady named Pamela Wilson late last year and I began using that name for this blog soon after that retreat. I’ve never felt quite sure of the name – mostly because I just feel no identification to that name at all. For that exact reason, I’ve kept the name. Sounds funny perhaps but I just can’t get rid of it for some reason.
I love love love The Work of Byron Katie, learning about all things spiritual for whatever reason and for better or worse. I listen to Eckhart Tolle, Francis Lucille, Adyashanti and enjoy reading J Krishnamurti books. Also I enjoy reading Nisargadatta Maharaj and Joel Goldsmith. Something resonates somewhere inside of me when I hear or read them but if you asked me to explain any of it, I could not and don’t know why.
So, other than that.. I’ve been working out at the gym with a new program and trying to eat healthier. My job is VERY uncertain and I have never been sooo in the midst of the unknown in terms of what is about to happen financially or with the job. Who knows! I’ve let it go of the worry for now in that regard and am trying to save a bit and spend wisely until something becomes clear.
So there! A fresh start. Here’s to new beginnings.
All my love,
BS
